I Reflect On My “Why” When The Chips Are Down


When nothing else matters, we find our resolve in the moments of adversity and challenging times.  In the silent moments when there are no more cheerful on lookers and as self-doubt seeps in.  We draw upon the strength within and our relentless reason for being and doing, our ultimate reason, or as so many would put it, our “why” to keep the engine of motivation running.  So that we may continue to rise above the self-doubt or our inability to do something that we may not do well at the time.

There are times we may not feel like writing, going to the gym, going to work or even getting out of the bed in the morning because we may not be feeling at our best or as a result of our mitigated resolve or weakened state.  That is why it is so important to have a reason that mean more to you than money to you.

I can only talk from my own experience.  I believe there are times when I feel I can take on the world, motivate, and inspire people.  There are also times where my own resolve appears to be spent. Which leaves me to look at my own notes and remember, reflect, why I do what I do, and why it is important to me to continue to lead the charge in my own life.  I don’t have many people I personally know who can motivate or inspire me, except through books and blogs of perfect strangers.

What I found is this, it’s easy to write about how life is so great and watch others live life to the fullest.  But that’s just cosmetics.  The balance of it all, is to write about the good and the bad things in life.

To have a platform that speaks to its readers with the ability to inspire others to be their better selves even behind closed doors when there is no one looking.

I am an amateur blogger and started to blog openly of my weight loss journey.  Ever since I started blogging I realized I enjoy writing.  Writing about my journey is also a better way to build on writing as I become a better writer.



New Results In Fat Burning Journey


The journey to living in a healthier way has been a difficult one for me.  However, the journey has been an engaging one with ups and down while trying improve my life through underlying health issues.

I believe if you truly go after that which you desire with persistency, determination, and steadfast tenacity.  You will reach that point of achievement for which you have worked so hard to attain.  Having said that, I am over joyed to show some of my recent results as I continue to embark on my one-hundred five pounds fat burning journey.

When I fist decided I needed to do something about my weight I weighed in at 305lbs.  I never thought I would start logging it.  However, the pictures are like a thousand words.




Look how far I have come below.

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I will soon show what shakes I have been taking which has help facilitate my weight loss.

I am now at 57 pounds loss!!! Yes!!!


Preparing For Old Age While Living In The Present

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I am constantly learning about my own limits and the constant changes to my body as I am slowly approaching age sixty in a couple of years.  Desire to lose weight, working out, and watching what I eat is not the only thing I must be aware of.  I must also pay close attention to the changes in my body and the new limits that are set by aging.

Our mind does not age as fast as our bodies.  When it comes to age, our minds can be deceiving, which most of the time can be a very good thing.  We all heard the old saying, “Age is just a number.”  When it comes to the mind it’s true.  However, the vessel that houses the mind says something different.

Preparing for old age while living in the present can be provide us with a wakeup call.  As our bodies start to deteriorate our mind appears not to age at all.  Of course, that is how I feel at least.  I notice the older that I get, my mind says I am able to do something until the limitations of my body counter acts with a severe shot of reality to my mind halts or slow down my progress.

The older I get, the more I feel I am running out of time.  I know I cannot be the only one who feels this way and can only imagine there are so many people who feel this way as well.  When we are young we feel invincible, but when we are in our middle age we start to shift our perspective with an emphasis on living longer and having an income to provide us to live comfortable in our golden years.

We also start to take more stock in our health, what we eat, what we put in our bodies, and how simple things that we do or normally take for granted becomes a little challenging to do as we age.  Then we notice things are changing for us.  Our vessels are aging and for some of us, our past of doing harmful things to our bodies come back to haunt us, as we pay the price of bad decisions and wished we had listen to those around us who warned us we should stop doing was it was that was harmful and may cause adverse effects on our bodies in the future.

It’s like playing catch-up, but the damage is already done.  We cannot change the past, but we can control we do for the future to mitigate the deteriorating effects of aging with a less stressful life that includes a healthier outlook on the rest of our life.  In order to do this, we must maintain a good balance in our life.  Something I am still working on myself.

Balance is easily said and a little more difficult to do.   I admire those who can seemly do this with out any thought at all. It comes so natural for them.  They are surrounded by family who love them, friends who admire and adore them.  They have good health, a healthy financial life, good careers and hobbies, a spiritual balance of belief, and a great sense of who they are, which helps them live a fulfilling long life.

At the end, that’s what it’s all about.  Having a sense of gratitude and a sense of establishment having contributed to society as well as enriching the lives that we encounter.  Servicing our ultimate purpose for being here as we shared our god giving talents, gifts, compassion, and love. So that as we lived, we may leave knowing we accomplished what we set out to accomplish with no regrets.

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Hard To Blog While I Study


Studying my insurance CE classes took a toll writing on my blog.  I have waited until the last minute, the last thirty days to study and realized I should have not have done that. Studying for long hours have left me to exhausted to write anything in my blog.  However, this is not a business or I would have had to find time for creating and informing.  My blog is merely my weight loss journey being logged.

I have to admit, I have not stopped working out.  Losing weight safely is a very important thing for me right now.  I was able to continue taking a break from studying for one hour and exercise which helped to break the monotonous routine of studying.

I have also noticed that I have been stuck at 253lbs pounds for two weeks and that was driving me crazy.  Perhaps is was the stress that was brought on by trying to beat the dead line for my license or simply something I was doing wrong or not.  It’s difficult to say.  I believe it’s time to shake up my exercise routine again, something I have done several times and it appears to work.

I will post what happens after changing up my exercise.  I have stopped with the weight training because I was I was building to much muscle and gaining weight instead of losing weight.  I will add light weight training and see what happens.

Do anyone have any Ideas on how to stay focussed on blogging while studying for test?  Please share what you do with me.  Thanks.


Finding What Works, Makes All The Difference


Weight loss has been a roller – coaster ride for me for several years. However, with a little discipline, have finally found something that works for. I am keeping my weight down while losing slowly and keeping the weight off.

I have heard that 90% of what we do outside of the gym counts more than the ten percent of what we do inside the gym that will help obliterate those unwanted pounds, as well as maintain the weight loss too.

However, I have learned what is also a huge and need to have a percentage factored in with the numbers I have mentioned above, is our state of mind, before the weight loss, during losing weight, and while maintaining the weight that we have loss.

It’s no surprise, to see why so many of us have fallen into such a slump and letting our bodies go over a period of time.  For some it’s no being lazy that stops the, it’s just life and our perspective we choose to deliver to ourselves within life.

Sure, it’s important to make a living and take care of the bills and family.  Just as important, not more, is the fact that we must take care of our bodies and state of mind or we will not be able to continue to do the things we need to do for ourselves and family

What is important is balance.  We must find it equilibrium in our live to achieve all that we aspire to do in life and be able to inspire the people around us, while we enjoy all the fruits of that life has to offer.

How I Stay Motivated

In life there are so many things that may try to distract us from our goals, whatever they may be.  So, how to we press forward?  How do you in the storm of adversity stay positive and continue on the path you have set for yourself?

Things I Do to Stay Motivated When Desire to Move Forward Weakens.

Before I embarked on my journey, I had to ask myself “why”.  Why in the world do I want to lose weight? It sure wasn’t because I simply wanted to.  The underlying reason I wanted to lose weight wasn’t very simple.  It was a combination of several reasons; like, being heaving was causing more health issues, it became difficult to walk a few simple steps without becoming winded, it also became increasingly difficult to performed simple task, just to name a few.

I knew I was in for a fight physically and mentally.  Therefore, I had to make certain preparations as best as I could at the time to prepare my self for when things become difficult.  I associated pain with being fat.  I made it a habit to look in the mirror and dislike what I saw and then affirm how I will look when I am done fighting the battle of the bulge.  Mentally envisioning how I would look, how I would feel, and how important losing weight and developing healthy habits will be.

I then envisioned all the things I will try and do as a result of the weight loss.  When life gets me down because of circumstance I cannot control, I thank God for the good things in my life and the power he has over all good things that will come my way.

Then I go back to my “why”.  I look at all the reasons I written down at the beginning and compare it to how far I have come.  I recognize anything worth having sometimes you have to fight tooth and nail to get it.  Once you got it the battle is not over, you have to fight to maintain it.  However, it’s easier to maintain then it is to newly acquire.

How Amazing Change Can Be

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When I first embarked on the journey to lose weight, there were several factors that came into play before starting.  There was the fact that it became increasing difficult to tie my shoes in any position that I tried. Whether it was putting my foot up, trying to bend completely over while standing up, because, trying to tie my shoes while sitting down was just impossible at the time.

Something as simple as tying my shoe laces became a major event that left me quite winded and needed a few minutes to catch my breath.  The simple things I normally take for granted every day while in shape became a major task while out of shape.  I noticed, it took me longer to clean the house and do my daily chores.

My Self Esteem Was Mitigated

My self esteem mitigated and I started doing less and believing that perhaps, I wasn’t cut out to do much in my life and I should succumb to being the less than average fat person and stay out of people’s way who seemed to have a definite purpose in life than I had.

Depression Seeped In

I didn’t notice at the time I was getting depressed and started feeling sick more and more every day.  It felt as if something was trying to pulled me down into some type of bottomless pit and I would die without ever accomplishing anything.  This went on for years undetected.  My relationship suffered to the point of no return and became toxic.  All external relationships that I ever thought to forge for business was destroyed as well.  I simply became unproductive in my life and wanted out.  I wanted a change.  I needed to change.

I found Inner Strength Do Fight to Live

I started to read self-help books and listening to Jim Rohn cd’s in my car.  After several months I noticed a change in my mindset, shift that would lead my down a better road.  I didn’t know how long it would take but I knew and felt this would be a good road for me to take.  Let’s face it, any road was better than the one I was on.

How Goal Setting Help Me Change My Life

At 305lbs, I knew I had a tough road ahead.  But where and how do I start.  After reading and listening to motivational material, I needed to create a goal and follow it.  I must stay perfectly candid here. I was always able to set goals, but, I was never able to stay true to them and be consistent and follow them through to the end.  I still struggle to this day with goal setting.  However, there is one goal I have not waivered on and that is to lose weight.

I had to start with a small goal and when I reached it, I celebrated by myself.  I really had no one to celebrate with any way.  My first goal was to lose ten pounds.  Man was I in for the fight of my life.  Let me tell you why.  It was easy gaining weight because without thinking, you develop so many bad habits and choices that led to an unhealthy lifestyle that you don’t notice you are changing in such a way until it’s to late.  You have to start learning new and heathier habit to replace the old bad habits that is easily said then done.  You also have to learn more about nutrition and how the body process food.  I believe setting small goals and achieving those goals will help you prepare to reach your ultimate goal.  The old saying “you have to crawl before you can walk” is fitting here.

The Change I Am Proud Of

I looked in the mirror the other day and was able to see how far I have come.  I am so proud of myself for having the tenacity to forge through on my quest to lose weight.  To the toon of 55lbs lighter and will continue until I have lost a full 100lbs.  Is this easy no!  Especially, with all the psychological is issues, self-doubt, and sabotaging I went through.  I prevailed through it all.  My journey is not over, I still have a long way to go.  However, if my story and be of some inspiration to someone else, I am humbler for having the opportunity to inspire someone to change.

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